Who is the impostor?
The impostor is
someone has lost their own identity.
They smile
when they feel angry...
they fake
excitement when they feel disappointment...
they say "yes" when
they want to say"no".
As children, they
lost their "wonder child"...
to become who they
thought others would approve of...
in a desperate
need for love and
acceptance.
In
adulthood...
they are
still separated from their own
needs...
continuing this
pattern throughout their life.
This subject
is close to my heart, having grown up in a home where love was scarce. I
became a "good little
girl" to get approval and to avoid consequences. I paid a BIG price for becoming
that "good
little girl" my parents wanted me to be. I disconnected from my authentic
self. I lost
my ability to trust my feelings. I lost confidence in who I was. It's not been an easy road back to finding the pieces of myself I
left behind. I'm still working on it...
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There were always in me, two women at least, one woman desperate and bewildered, who felt she was drowning and another who would leap into a scene, as upon a stage, conceal her true emotions because they were weaknesses, helplessness, despair, and present to the world only a smile, an eagerness, curiosity, enthusiasm, interest.”
― Anais Nin
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"I will be true to who I am"
