Last night was another difficult night with bladder pain.
The pain kept waking me, and almost immediately my mind began searching for a reason. It wanted to blame something I had eaten. For the past year, I have lived with many restrictions, afraid that food might be the cause of my suffering.
But recently, I made a different choice.
I chose to trust my intuition.
While my mind searches for physical explanations, something deeper in me believes my body is asking for attention, not punishment.
There is grief here.
Old grief.
Some of it belongs to my relationship with my sister. Some of it belongs to choices that still weigh on my heart, including the pain of rehoming a beloved pet many years ago.
My mind wants answers.
My intuition wants honesty.
Today, I am choosing not to fight what is here.
Not to analyze it.
Not to run from it.
Instead, I will make room for the grief.
I will invite it to sit beside me.
And perhaps, in being welcomed, it will finally have a chance to speak.
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