If you've lost someone dear to you, you may have found special ways to stay connected with them.
The year following the death of my daughter was when I first began writing little inspirational books.
Looking back, I see how instrumental it was in my healing process. It was a way to stay connected to Jody. I wasn't ready to let her go. There were things I wanted to share with her so I wrote a little book called "Things I Want You to Know". "See You in My Dreams" is from that book.
See You in My Dreams
I took a lot of long walks in nature to soothe my
grief. Somehow it brought me feel closer to you. Did you know that dragonflies come
in a rainbow of colors? I once even held a butterfly on my finger. Was it you I
held?
When you died, it was forced me to let others in. I became
unraveled, needing help with even the smallest decisions. My walls of
protection crumbled.
I finally moved near to the beach. Do you remember my
dream of being close to the ocean? After you left, I put our home up for sale. I
know you spent your childhood in that home; but don’t worry. I packed our
memories and brought them with me.
Your laughter had a tinkling sound to it. It was
infectious. It always made me laugh too. If I listen closely, I can still hear
it.
Grief forced me to take off the mask that hid my pain
from the world. All my life, I had created a false illusion of happiness. Now I’ve
become more honest about my feelings and needs.
The pain of losing you brought me to my knees and closer
to God.
Sometimes while I sleep, you visit me. At first, it
was hard. Dreams of you made me weep with longing. But now it’s comforting. See
you in my dreams.
Taken in North Port at a community garden.
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The best remedy for those who are afraid, lonely or unhappy is to go outside, somewhere where they can be quiet, alone with the heavens, nature and God. Because only then does one feel that all is as it should be and that God wishes to see people happy, amidst the simple beauty of nature. Anne Frank
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"Though I've been hurt, I take risks to love again and again"
