For years I've neglected my own heart. There's a child in me that has a broken picker when it comes to relationships. I've been careless with where I've placed my trust. I'm not judging anyone for my mistakes. I pretended to see things the way I wanted them to be rather than how they really were and then, paid a price for my denial.
I'm grateful for the lessons that are helping me see myself more clearly. I see how I have been looking outside of myself for something I obviously lacked inside. My choices have merely been a reflection of what I thought I deserved. I set myself up to fall again and again.
My prayer for today is that I make good choices, listening to my heart, as well as, my intuition. As far as the child in me who's still in need of love, I will be her provider.
Guilt is a method we use to cause harm to ourselves. For instance if you were abused as a child and today beat yourself up with guilt over things you've done in the past, you have continued the pattern of abuse. Guilt has no purpose!!! If you refuse to accept guilt in your life, there will be no need for punishment. The abuse cycle is then broken.
This also means we won't be pointing fingers at others either. Instead we take responsibility for our part in every situation. We forgive those who have caused us harm just as we forgive ourselves for the things we've done to cause harm.
Don't give power to guilt. Let the past go. And if you make a mistake in the future, merely correct it without giving any power to judgment over it.
“an extremely sensitive area of the heart for a woman, and has plenty of opportunity to be easily bruised. When that does occur, she will put up a protective barrier to try and avoid any such pain occurring again. If this barrier isn’t dismantled fairly soon, a woman’s heart becomes accustomed to its protective barrier, and the heart shielded inside gradually becomes hardened. As women, we may be able to function like this for awhile. But there will come a time in your life where God will begin to peel away those hard layers surrounding your heart, and you probably won’t like that sensation. But you have to fight your natural instinct to run away...
I unpacked a few old projects this week hoping to inspire myself to sew again. Creating dolls was one of the ways I used to cope with emotional pain. There was a time in my life when my soul cried for help, but I didn't listen. Instead I hid my pain...
Eventually life forced me to get real. It was the best thing that could have ever happened. A miracle! As I began to empty out all the hurt I had shoved down into my gut, the chamber of my heart peeked open...
“Behind every dancer there’s someone that broke her,
The mystic path is a journey of personal transformation,
and while the goal of the journey is to become our true selves,
we can only do this by letting go of who we are not.
If we wish to experience the fullness of life,
we must cut through layers of illusion that hide the truth of who we really are.
We must reclaim the parts of our self we have denied - the parts that cause us to feel shame, regret, guilt, anger... It is only in loving all the aspects that make up who we are, that we become free to be our true self. If we're only willing to show the world the parts we like and think others will like too, we will not live authentically. Burying the parts of our self we have judged forces us to wear a social mask. We pretend to be someone we are not. We have even fooled ourselves, thinking the imposter is us.
You transform your life by keeping your thoughts as pure as possible rather than letting your mind be a breeding ground for fear to thrive. When you catch yourself thinking negative, "surrender the thought". So often in the past I have gotten into an argument with my mind (and lost, by the way) thinking that if I scold myself for thinking poorly, it would change. But it actually it strengthens the ego's hold on you. Let go of any judgment about yourself, then correct the unholy thought by offering it to God for healing. When we surrender self-will, we are extending an invitation for God to do for us what we can not do for ourselves.
Life changes drastically when you stop listening to your thoughts... believing everything your mind says. It is your thoughts that are creating most of your unhappiness. Fear distorts and pollutes everything it touches. In surrendering your old fearful way of thinking, you will see how truly magnificent the world really is.
Yesterday I was clever, so I wanted to change the world.
Anyone who believes in lack doesn't know they're sitting on a pot of gold. Lack of love, health, and prosperity comes from a corrupted belief system. Changing old beliefs will bring new results. This may be difficult if you feel undeserving. I would start with a simple affirmation "I am worthy".