Pain leads to transformation

I have fun creating the background designs. On this one I used bubble wrap paper dipped in acrylic paint. I also added more circles with water soluble crayons.

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Understandably, no one likes pain. But pain, like everything else, has a purpose. Without pain, how would we motivate ourselves to change? Often we can get stuck in old patterns of thinking and behavior. But we're not meant to stay stuck. Life is always evolving and changing, so we must too.

 Without pain, how would we learn to be compassionate? Compassion is birthed though our own trials and tribulations. That doesn't mean that we don't have the capacity to care about others, but empathy comes from being able to identify what that other person is feeling. Trying to imagine how someone feels is not the same.

If you're being challenged at this time with a situation that is painful, can you trust there is purpose in it...it is has something valuable to teach you...it will lead you to transformation?

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A few years ago, I went back to Michigan (where I grew up) for a visit. It had been many many years since I had been there. The whole trip was rewarding and special. These photos were taken on that trip. Here's a Michigan butterfly!

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You may encounter many defeats,
but you must not be defeated.
In fact, it may be necessary to encounter the defeats,
so you can know who you are,
what you can rise from,
how you can still come out of it.

~ Maya Angelou ~

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"My pain and sorrow is welcomed as equally as my joy and peace"

A time for dreams

Time for change?

Are there things you want? Perhaps to be happier, more peaceful, improved health, more money, a new career...?

Now is the time to open your mind and heart to all possibilities.

Believe in yourself; there is no dream too BIG to achieve.

It's can also be a time to work harder on your spiritual life...building a closer relationship with yourself, God, others...work on self-esteem issues...unresolved anger, resentments, hurts...clean up the past by making amends...give yourself a clean slate in 2012.

Expect a miracle...be a miracle...share the miracle with others.

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One the changes I'm making this year is to move myself farther away from the retail business in regards to my books and greeting cards. I have loved the whole process of creating and sharing my work, but it's never been in my heart to be a salesperson.

I will no longer be selling my books and cards on my website. They will still be available at a wonderful inspirational gift store in Englewood called "Mystic See" (pictures above). My cards are also in several stores in Venice and Sarasota so check out my website if you want the locations. (www.creativehealingforwomen.com)

I have no idea where my creative process will be taking me next, but there's one thing I am certain of. I will stay true to my passion and follow my heart wherever it leads me...

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" My life is more than I could have ever dreamed of "

 

Building faith

My recuperation is going well. I went to the doctor's on Monday and received good news. The original diagnosis appears to be incorrect. Although I still don't know what caused me to get sick, I'm grateful that I don't have colitis.

There have been many valuable lessons in this experience. One of the biggest is FAITH.

By having to face my fear of hospitals, doctors, illness, and the other million things I feared before this, freed me from them.

There was a time in the hospital where I was so sick and so afraid that it was almost paralyzing.

It was at this point though that I turned it over to God. I knew I could no longer manage the anguish I felt without help.

I continued to be sick for a few more days, but I just put my faith in those who were caring for me, trusting God's hand was in there too. 

This faith building exercise has been a huge gift for which I'm grateful for. 

Remember:  Running from fear will only keep you stuck. Be willing to face it. Put your faith in God. Give yourself the gift of  freedom !!!!

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I shared in one of my earlier blogs the story of the tortoise and the hare. Moral of the story; we don't win the race by being the fastest...

I'm finding life in the slow lane is really good for my soul. I would highly recommend it.

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Cease trying to work everything out with your minds.
It will get you nowhere. Live by intuition and inspiration
and let your whole life be Revelation.

~ Eileen Caddy ~

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"I'm grateful for all my life lessons"

The gift of peace

The dragonflies in the background were applied with a rubber stamp. Instead of using a stamp pad, I used acrylic paint.

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Acceptance is the key to serenity.

No matter what the circumstances are, if you practice acceptance, peace will follow.

How often we fight to change things because we're uncomfortable with the circumstances.

We put fear in charge of running our lives.

Learn to sit in the discomfort rather than forcing change. 

Maybe there's a life lesson to be learned from it.

Life lessons are gifts. They help us evolve in our spiritual life.

And remember that resistance to any circumstance will only cause you pain.

I believe with all my heart that everything that happens to us is for our Highest good.

I know that's a lot to embrace, but open your mind to the possibility. You may come to believe...

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My special little friend Alicia, and my partner Jack. Though they were smiling, earlier they had a disagreement over who was going to eat the last piece of toast (at the Cracker Barrel restaurant). Jack ate it. Alicia said he was "rude". I just chuckled...both of them LOVE to eat... don't mess with their food.

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As human beings we all want to be happy and free from misery.
                       

We have learned that the key to happiness is inner peace.
                       

The greatest obstacles to inner peace are disturbing emotions such

as anger and attachment, fear and suspicion,...
                      

  Dalai Lama

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"I trust that what life brings me, serves me"

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Quieting the busy mind

The red circles in the background were done with water soluble crayons. All you do is scribble the area with a crayon (in this one I made red circles). Then take a wet paint brush to blend and dilute the color. It almost like using watercolor paints. Fun, fun, fun...

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Isn't it kind of crazy how our minds are always spinning stories in our head? Most of the stories aren't even true. They're imaginary scenerios that our minds spend hours entertaining. And how many of those stories are scary ones? I don't know about you, but I don't watch horror flicks. Why on earth would we want to scare ourself by playing frightening untrue stories in our mind? My guess is two reasons; habit and fear.

We get in the habit of thinking too much. And if you're fearful by nature, your stories won't be positive ones.

 Often our thoughts consists of a lot of junk. Don't believe all your thoughts.

Stop the stories when you catch yourself playing them.

Thinking your way through life blocks you from taking the heart journey.

Find nourishing things to do that will help quiet your busy mind.

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                  The photo is a little blurry, but there's something about it that still catches my eye.

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For those who believe,
No proof is necessary.
For those who don't believe,
No proof is possible.

~ Author Unknown ~

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              "My thoughts no longer hold me hostage"

"I am free to live in my heart"

The power of your thoughts

Created with a charcoal pencil and inexpensive acrylic paints.

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I want to share this article with you because it's important to know that at every moment your thoughts are directly influencing the quality of your life. If you want more happiness, one of the things that will help you achieve it is positive thinking. Negative self-talk, gossip, embellishing stories, or portraying yourself as a victim rather than empowering yourself by taking responsibility for your circumstances, will not work in your favor. Explore your thinking!

The Power of Your Thoughts by Susan Velez

Do you realize the power of your thoughts? Whatever you focus your thoughts on whether negative or positive will come to pass; especially if you spend a lot of your time focusing on it. Not many people seem to understand this and they spend a majority of their time focusing on things they are worried about like not enough money to pay the bills, they worry about their health and other things that they do not want to experience.

Have you ever thought about a friend you have not heard from in a while and as you give it more thought a couple days later you hear from this person. Do you think that is coincidence? Well it is not, you actually brought that into your life through the power of your thoughts. You can actually test this process out if you are skeptical one of the things you can do is create a vision board. Paste several pictures of things you would like to accomplish, begin focusing on those things on a daily basis and see yourself already in possession of whatever it is you put on your vision board. As you continue doing this daily you will begin attracting those things to you. Things will begin working out the way you want, however you must be open to signs and looking for little miracles that are occurring in your life because of the power of your thoughts....

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                                   These guys were too busy to notice me (thank goodness).

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I've learned that people will forget what you said,
people will forget what you did,
but people will never forget how you made them feel.

~ Maya Angelou ~

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"My words have the power to heal or harm someone. May I remember to practice kindness wherever I go"

Staying out of the fast lane

That's me sitting on the turtle's back...slowing myself down...being more grounded.

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I'm loving my pace these days;

SLOW

MINDFUL

PEACEFUL

CONTENT

IN THE MOMENT
CONNECTED
PRESENT
HAPPY

My days of life in the fast lane are over...days of instant gratification...seeking to fill an emptiness inside me with something outside of myself (which isn't possible)...looking for others to fill the hole in my soul (that doesn't work either).

My cup is full...

Life has taken a drastic turn for the better.

 I've never felt happier than I am at this moment or more certain that the changes are right for me. I have fallen deeper in love with my surroundings...with people... with myself...with nature.

My heart is brimming with gratitude...joy....warmth...overflowing with LOVE.

I'm discovering that I've had a connection with turtles for a long time. This pic were taken more than ten years ago (before digital cameras).

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"We're on this journey called "life" to learn only one lesson; how to love"

Making amends to myself

I recently spent six days in the hospital after being diagnosed with ulcerative colitis. I've been home for a week now. My health has been slowly, but steadily improving each day. I can see though, it's going to take time for my body to heal properly. And that's okay. I'm in no rush to get back to any kind of busyness. I look at this experience as my opportunity to make amends to myself for neglecting my needs (emotionally, physically, and spiritually) in the past.

Do you practice good self-care? Today offers you the opportunity to practice being kind, gentle, and loving to yourself. You deserve it!!!!

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Some of my older photos. This duck was a hoot to shoot!!!!

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I seldom think about my limitations, and they never make me sad. Perhaps there is just a touch of yearning at times but it is vague, like a breeze among flowers.

Helen Keller

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"I am worthy"

The heart of a child

One of my first attempts at doing mixed media art.

I loved the fact that there are no rules to follow with mixed media art. The crazier you get with your piece, the more fun it is, and the better it looks. As you can see, I was still in my cocoon stage with this piece, not quite ready to play freely...just testing out my wings.

I spent so much of my life trying to color inside the lines, wanting to be perfect. I was raised to believe that in order to be loved, you had to be a good little girl. Boy, did I ever want to be loved... I tried to be the best little girl I could, but in doing so, I lost my self...my spirit...my playfulness.. my true nature.

Art has helped me to reconnect to the little girl I used to be. Together, we're learning to play by new rules. No more coloring inside the lines. We make lots of messes... mistakes...explore...play.

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       I often forget my age because I feel so young. No blue hair or polyester pants in my future.

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It is important from time to time
to slow down, to go away by yourself,
and simply Be.

~ Eileen Caddy ~

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"I will be all that God created me to be"

"I am enough"

I enjoy creating cute little houses in my artwork.

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My word for today is "ENOUGH".

It's taken me a long time to figure out that my core belief "I am not enough" was the driving force behind a lot of my poor decision making, throughout my life. Not feeling good enough made push myself hard so as to prove myself. But no matter what I achieved, it never quieted the critical voice in me. My unworthiness was always ready to point it's gnarly finger at me anyways 

Yuck!!!! I was being so mean to myself.

My truth today is different. My value as a human being has nothing to do with what I do for others or my achievements, or how perfectly I do things. Being enough is about feeling good about myself without all the crazy stuff.... doing too much, going too fast, buying things I don't need, overworking, overextending myself, using food to medicate my feelings....

Are you enough? I would love to hear about you.

If you join as a follower so you can participate in the comment box, you may want to choose a cute name for yourself such as Dragonfly Deb or Yoga Girl.

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I once loved taking photographs of colorful little beach cottages. I used to fantasize about what it would be like to live in one. It hasn't happened yet. I'm not sure if it's even a dream anymore. I feel very content where I'm at. But it was fun at the time...

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I've learned that people will forget what you said,
people will forget what you did,
but people will never forget how you made them feel.

~ Maya Angelou ~

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Affirmations for today

I am enough

I do enough

I have enough

A turtle's pace

If you look close, you'll see little grains of sand (very tiny) that add texture to the paint.

There are so many interesting things to play with in the creative world. There's a little girl in me who wants to try them all.

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The last few days of being home have been soothing to my soul.

I'm going to take life slower.

No more pushing, achieving, cramming, driving myself...

I'm looking forward to learning to live deeper.

I'm letting go of my search for MORE..more of this, more of that..

I've learned this past week that I have everything I need.

What is your life pace? Is it too busy? What would you like to change?

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Rememer this guy from one of my earlier blogs? I meet him in Shamrock Park.

I think he's living life right...

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The best and most beautiful things in the world
cannot be seen nor touched
but are felt in the heart.

~ Helen Keller ~

"Let me just savor the moments"

There's always a silver lining

Nothing like a week in the hospital to change the direction of your life.

If you've wondered where my daily blogging went off to, I'll give you the mini version.

It started with a trip to the emergency room, nine hours of waiting on tests, and finally being admitted to the hospital. Then another four days of not eating, more IV fluid bags I've ever seen in my life and the worst pain I've ever been in. Than another 2 days of regaining my strength to come home. And here I am...

In just 10 days, my whole life changed. I went from being sicker than I've ever been,

 to coming home happier and freer than I've ever felt. Go figure!!!

I said this year was going to be about freedom. It's starting out with a BANG.

I'll give you more medical details as I slowly process it myself. Right now, I'm focusing my energy on healing.

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How did I ever take this picture? Isn't he exquisite? As I said before, a cheap camera and some patience..

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"I am free"

Free to be ME

My favorite word this year is: FREEDOM.

freedom' independence, moving with ease, lack of attachment

After examining my life, I have some goals for this year. I'm excited. 

At the moment, there's three areas I'm working on. 

The first one is my attachment to food. I love chocolate and popcorn. Both of these comforting bedtime snacks have soothed me since my daughter Jody, died. A week ago, I gave them up.

A buried layer of grief came as a result. I was ready...more healing...part of the process of letting go.

The second thing I'm changing is my relationship with money. I'm less attached to spending than I've ever been in my life. I'm also letting go of worrying about money. Letting go doesn't mean I have more money; it means I have more faith. 

The third area has to do with relationships. Freedom means I can allow people to move in and out my life without attaching needs or expectations to them. It also means making good choices in my friendships so I don't set myself up for unneccessary hurt. If someone tells me "this is who I am", I need to believe them instead of thinking I can change them. Then, in knowing who they are, it's up to me to make mindful choices about what works for me. The desperate woman who once wanted everyone to love her, isn't who I am anymore..

What does freedom mean for you? Are there things you'd like to change this year? What are they?

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 I came across this picture yesterday of Jody and I.

"I am free to be ME"